Publish Date: Mar 25, 2021
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So when you are raped and you have no way of processing that the triggers come in all forms and ways that you cannot predict and show up in your life in areas that at the time you don't know that this is mental illness you shared with me that you became a cutter. I did. And that and that you have scars from cutting. Can you explain to me because I have girls at my school who cut and I still to this day don't understand what it means. And I know if you are in this audience, some of you have raised daughters who were cutters. What? What what What is that? Well, I like to say I used to cut um, as opposed to saying Qatar. And I think I did say that with with you in our interview. I love you too, sweetheart. Um uh, I like to say I used to cut as opposed to I am a cutter because then that like like I can identify with it, and that's not healthy for me. And when you speak things out into existence, you're feeding back something to your brain that you don't want to write. So I used to coat cutting for me, I believe happens for a variety of reasons. I also used to throw myself against the wall. I mean, I used to do some horrible things to myself when I was in pain. And the truth is, is there's two reasons I believe that this happens and this is my own personal expertise. Just from my experience is that for half a second, right, If you call it, you get some relief from the other pain that you're feeling because you have pain somewhere else. But then after what happens is is then you see the blood and then you feel chaotic, and then you spiral more and more out of control, and it is actually not helpful in any way, and it is going to make your spiral worse. It will make the neurotic state that you're in something that is going to be prolonged instead of shortening the amount of time that you're in it. Another reason, though, that people cut also is to show. And my mom and I always say, with born this way foundation, tell me, don't show me so sometimes I would cut because I didn't want to feel pain and other times I would cut because I wanted to show people that I was in so much pain. You were in pain and I needed