I want to acknowledge that while the past year has been difficulty, I'm very lucky because my family has stayed healthy. Everyone that I love has stayed healthy. I did it one point. Get cove it. But I thankfully you know, obviously Okay, that being said, I am at the very beginning of the pandemic. My I was put on furlough from my full time job, which I've been very lucky because I've still been able to support myself through my freelance work. But I live alone in New York and was here. I stayed here through the worst of the pandemic where you weigh weren't really allowed outside. And you're just kind of locked up all day with nothing but your thoughts. In the absence of having any real structure, I just kind of slowly fell back into, like, creating a structure for myself. That was around my eating to sort of behaviors. And I got to a point in the summer where I was still having a pretty hard time with it. And I knew both my doctor and I knew that I needed, like, a tune up, and I gave myself like a week to try and do it on my own because I like to avoid treatment, as I think most people do, Um, but realized that I could really benefit from more help and given the situation, I had the luxury of time to do it. So I kind of took that leap in August. I went and I had intended on staying for two weeks just is like a quick tune up. But it turned out that I was really fortunate tohave, probably the best team I've ever worked with and want to make the most of that. So I stayed for a little, probably two months on day, came back to New York in October, and since then it's, you know, obviously recovery is a struggle, especially that soon after coming out of treatment. But I have a really good team set up, and I feel like, um, it's been hard, but much more manageable, so thankful. I really appreciate the language that you used because I think it in a very simple and I don't mean to simplify your situation. I mean, in a simple way. It really it kind of sums up what a lot of people are struggling with which is there was no structure, and my eating disorder did provide structure probably. And I don't want to speak for you provided comfort, a companionship, something to do, something to think about. I don't know if that resonates with you or if I'm just speaking hypothetically. No, it totally resonates with me. And I also think that it's really hard when, as we talked about the other day, it's when everyone around you starts focusing on like, oh, avoiding the quote unquote quarantine 15 and like, Oh, this at home workout And this at home worked out and I kind of started to I don't know how it was for anyone else, but I kind of started to lose track of the fact that you know, I can't indulge in these things like that is not for me. I need to be more careful. But I think it was just such an extraordinary situation that just kind of slid. I guess, um didn't intend on that's happening or having to go back to treatment. But, you know, here we are. So how has it been since coming out? Because here we still are, Christina, nothing has changed. So how are you navigating through it now, Like you said, nothing has changed, which is very frustrating, but I think we're all feeling that right now. Um, and I just really tried to I really, like, beefed up the people that I work with. Um, and I see them every week or, you know, quote unquote. See, it's all over. Zoom still. Um, and that's been very helpful. And just having more accountability with my friends in recovery. So, you know, Ruthie and others has been incredibly helpful. Andi, I also just feel like that time and treatment really reinforced why I started doing this in the first place. And I think when I started treatment, I was at the beginning of my twenties and felt like I had all the time in the world to kind of get that in check. And now, being at the start of my thirties, it feels looks a little bit different. Like I know I wanna have a family and I professional goals for myself. And I know that this isn't just gonna go away on its own. I really have to do the work. And I'm committed to doing that work. Um, that doesn't make it any easier, of course, but I think I'm much more clear on knowing that if I don't really address this now, it's not going anywhere. And that will really affect how the rest of my life, um, pans out. So did it have an impact on your nonprofit on the way you were able to show up for the chain? Was there any, uh, self judgment for being one of the co founders and being back in treatment? And please forgive me? I didn't mean to impose that there should be. I'm just, you know, I'm wondering, How was it working in the field and having to go back in? I think, honestly, not at all, because both Ruthie and I have been very honest and open. That recovery is so nonlinear and the shame that is sometimes felt by people who have to go back to treatment or continue to struggle or whatever it is. Um, really, there's no reason for it, and that really does keep people from getting the help that they need. So I think, and I even like, posted When I got back, I really had to think about it like, do I want to put this out there like that feels so exposing of myself, and I'm a very private person. But ultimately I felt like if this could really help, someone realized that it doesn't matter how long you've been in recovery. It doesn't matter, like what you might think of yourself or what others might think of yourself. This is what you need to do for yourself, and there's no shame in asking for help, even if you felt like you were passed the point of needing it. So we really want to drive that message.