I don't know therefore what I'm going to say, I will say 1000 years ago. I was born in Los Angeles. I don't remember any of Los Angeles when I was a kid because the first home I found that I remember was a little farm community about 46 miles southwest of Wichita Kansas. Uh, we thought we were in the bible belt. Uh, you got a little older, we went into Oklahoma on a visit. They think they're in the bible belt Texans, think they're in the bible belt, Nebraska south Dakota. You know, everybody thinks they're in the bible about that, that's not true. The people in new york city and in California are not in the bible belt and, and they know they're not and I'm telling you they are happy, but nobody knows exactly where the bible belt is, but I know that it buckles About 46 miles southwest of Wichita Kansas in this little town that I grew up in. And if I have ever grown up, I started out growing up in that little town and, and it was a small little farm community and the businessman in the community would put on free movies on friday night, maybe saturday night to attract the farmers into our town. So they buy their groceries, get their haircut and all that in our community and that. One of those free movies, I saw a travel of movie entitled, I think training while the elephants in India. I know that was what it was about. They rounded up the wild elephants, they took the baby elephants out of the herd and they started their training by putting a rope around the right front leg and then snubbing them up to a big tree. And the baby elephant fought and tugged and fought and tug piers running down its face until it comes to believe that when that ropes tight, it's futile to pull. Then they go on with the rest of the training, the trainer, making sure that he reinforces that truth about when the ropes type for the rest of the elephants training. And at the end of the movie there was this huge elephant. They'd cut down the tree, cut the limbs off the tree, hooked that tree onto the elephants harness and he would drag it out of the forest. We harvest and at lunch in order to hold the big elephant where they want it, they put a rope around his right front legs. They drove a state deep enough in the ground that when they put the other end of the rope around that state and the elephant could walk around, he would. But when the rope got tight on his right leg, he couldn't pull. Now the state didn't hold the elephant. The rope didn't hold the elephant. What held the elephant was the limiting belief they had imposed on him when he was a baby, I came to a a, I heard this great speaker Don Gates and he was talking about why he was a republican or a democrat. I don't remember what when he was, but he articulately and succinctly described the elements of being a good republican or democrat and then he said, but the real reason I'm a democrat and because my dad was a democrat, I knew, you know, I know that and on the way home I remembered the baby elephant and I realized I have a whole life kind full of baby elephant beliefs, stuff that I don't even know, I know, but it's stuff that has to be true if I'm going to have a sense of well being and or feel good about myself and my life, one of the baby elephant beliefs which did not help me was that I'm separate from God and the church I went to, they talked about God being up in heaven, behind the pearly gates on the streets of gold. Now you don't have to tell me you're separate from God. Later they did tell me that, but but if they were to said God was in Kansas city, then I know I'm separate from him because he's up in Kansas city and that was and then later they told the Adam and Eve story and how I am separate from God and God, I'll tell you, I felt it. I felt the separation that become a fundamental baby elephant belief of mine. And also they told us how to pray when we're in trouble, we can beseech God in prayer and if we behave the way we're supposed to behave, then God will answer the prayer and you can go on with your life. Well the first time I remember praying and knowing who I was praying to and what I was praying for it with sunday morning, wheat harvest would start monday, but never sunday in my church and and we fervently and sincerely prayed for God to not let it rain until after wheat harvest and the farmers had brought to crops in. I mean wheat was our breadbasket and it rained that day, It hailed that day, the wind blew that day and rained all the wheat in Sumner county Kansas and while nobody pointed the finger at me, I knew whose fault it was. That's right now. I had been caught from as early as I can remember that I need to be an individual achiever and it was up to me and somehow I had dropped the ball with God and it had rained and destroyed the wheat crop. Now, if you're four or five years old and you've assumed the entire responsibility for wiping out the Kansas wheat crop, this what you have is an ego problem. The old ego assuming responsibility for getting things done so that you'll have a sense of well being, which you lack the power to do. Mm.