um you know, I've done ketamine infusion therapy, I've done ibogaine treatment um with five of me, Oh, you know, I mean, I've done every alternative thing that you can thank you and and I think it all had a cumulative effect um that is hopefully helping me now. I don't uh but, you know, at some point, the fact of the matter is is that the way that I look at rehab is when I first got sober in 2000 and three and stayed sober for six close to seven years? Uh It was really, really important because I needed that distance between my first, my last drink and that, you know, 30 days, I just needed to be able to be somewhere. So I totally get that, I totally get that the effectiveness of the other times um in terms of advancing my recovery, I think was real diminishing returns. And one of the reasons is is because I think that, you know, and what I needed then was to really, really figure out how trauma was impacting my addiction in my entire life. And I think for the first time ever, and part of this book was that is really exploring the uh that that um childhood trauma from the, you know, from the first with my mom and my my little sister died in that car accident. Um and then you were in that accident? Well, yeah, I mean, the boat came out with physically, physically unscathed. I mean, I think that that kind of trauma is something that most humans I had a serious, they didn't think you had a head injury. Really serious head injury. Okay, okay. But, look, I mean, I mean, people look, people are so judgmental about this whole thing when when um uh God, I'm old. Uh Whitney Houston died, Whitney Houston died, and people were like, and her daughters drinking. Can you imagine, Like, Yeah, if my mother just died, I'd want to drink. I can actually imagine I want to drink when there's a fucking line at the grocery store. I'm like, ok, I can't take it, I can't do it. So, you know the whole.