but I always just wanted to perform And you know, around the time of the nellie's when I came out to L. A. One of the guys that always gave us wigs, he did the hair from Mad tv. So the nellie's always had fun cartoony wigs. Um He said because I would dance around the house and everything there, like he would be like john you were so funny with the dance routines and the dance moves, you should, you know, because I would do this little dance numbers as Connie is like my beauty pageant talent, He's like you should put a show together called the daft dances. And that was always on my mind for 2020 years. It was always on my mind, like a series of comic dances, you know? And I I worked in the fitness industry, so I knew cardio aerobics instructor, which is really weird because I was just at the gym and like the guy You were once one time you don't you? Yes, people were like that guy I saw like naked and then wearing your wig and he was teaching aerobics and I don't know what's happened. You and I have you and I have weird, we we we've all over L. A. And see each other in very odd places, which is so fun. But I knew I again I thought oh if we could do like a kind of like a cardio comedy show and I thought well it has to be Connie because Connie was just me really but the really underdog country, you know, growing up in the south, your first taste of entertainment for some are beauty pageants where others a beautiful growing on stage and she has a talent. Now listen, I had I would have been entering shit like that would have been like, I would have never won because of my beautiful horsey, you know, structure, however I would have been non finalist talent when he miss Anthony, I'll help you with your hair girl but I always love that but I always loved the one. Now listen the Louisiana, those pageants, we have pageants like Miss Stock show, Miss blanchard pope salad, you know Miss Louisiana score, you know it all like what? And there would always be these the underdog, so you you know the beautiful girl, there will be a beautiful girl there, but I always loved that underdog that you know just her hair looked a little greasy, didn't really wear makeup, borrowed a dress because there's always the perfect girl who had been in pageants since a toddler and she had perfect teeth like the Vaseline, the teeth like in the movie and when nobody here and she could do the way she was gonna win, she was going to win. But then there was sort of the girls like who did it for confidence? Like, oh dear, and I'm just here for confidence. Yes, So you love that girl, You saw that? I saw that girl and I said, you know, there was, there was also something that I remember, something was told to Jamie lee Curtis one time that I've also felt that was something when I started doing stuff on film and this is more the self hating, I say the self hating gay as a, I shouldn't joke about that, but we all deal with self hatred, you know what I mean? We've all got thighs, you know, we've all got, you know, so whatever. But there were certain things about the way I would stand That I felt without me on film and you know, back then in the 90s, as gay as we were, as the Nellie Olson, we would walk down commercial street provincetown in high heels and panties and nothing else going, hey, come to our chef you and confuse everyone. But when it would come to an audition, like you would have to get in drag and go to Warner brothers, it put me back to a place to where, where the nellie's gave me beyond confidence, beyond confidence as a performer, as a, as a person that was smart, like you're not educated, you didn't go to the ground length. But it allowed me to recognize like you recognized and that's something that was really freaking good and was not mediocre and it was, you know, but again, no one's ever heard of us, isn't that fabulous.