right. It's just unbelievably good name. Love him. Yeah, So when Jim was 11, he met a Yes, sorry, this is I shouldn't This is a bummer. When Jim was 11, he met a young man from his church and adult in his twenties or thirties who introduced himself as Russell Russell approach Jim on Saturday after service and asked if he wanted to have a hamburger at a nearby driving. Now, today, if a stranger walks up to a kid and says, You wanna leave your parents behind to go get a hamburger like that's Ah, it's a red flag. I'm not great at raising kids, but that that that's a that's a that's a red flag. But this is the early 19 fifties. People trusted each other, and his parents were like, Sure, go off with the stranger by its fine And and he did S o again. And this is going to seem really weird. That fucking 11 year old boy would go off with this guy in his twenties or thirties to get a hamburger. But Jim was again starved for attention. He later wrote that he was quote odd that this adult would want me he gave me all his undivided attention. I felt wonderfully special. Um, so yeah, After burgers, Russell drove off with Jim down a deserted dirt road and stopped. He unzipped Jim's jeans and started to fondle him while he was being molested. Jim felt quote almost proud that Russell would give me so much attention. I thought so. This must be what having a buddy is all about. This must be what big guys dio. Yeah, Yeah, this, uh, a little darker than I thought it would be at this point. Yeah. This is not a good That's not good one. No, it's a bummer. Yeah, it really is. So and it's like, heartbreakingly like you could it all completely scans like, Oh, yeah, this kid is just so desperate for attention. Yeah, yeah. Um So Jim didn't realize anything was really wrong at first. And Russell became a frequent figure in his life, hanging out with the family occasionally and then taking Jim off to isolated construction sites or other places where he could park the car, hiring him to mow his lawn so that he could, like, grab him in the middle of chores and molest him and Jim never like, fought this like he at the time. He went along with it and he later wrote Quote. I allowed Russell to do whatever he wanted to do to me. And I tried to comply with all his requests because he lavished attention and caring touches on May. Um, yeah. He's what, 15. 16? He said, no, he's 11. When this 11. 0, God, this goes on for a few years. Yeah, he's very, uh, he is the victim of a lot of abuse in this period. Um, and it is the kind of abuse where at the time, it's probably the most positive relationship in his life, which is further of ahead. Fuck. It's a lot to deal with As an 11 year old. Yeah. Eventually, Russell abandoned him, presumably because he got too old. And Russell was, you know, a pedophile. Um, and the whole situation was just a huge mind Fuck for young Jim. As you can imagine, he never told anyone about it. Um, you know, obviously he did later, But like as a kid, he didn't tell anybody. Um and yeah, like, he just didn't talk about it. For decades, his parents had raised a child that wasn't emotionally connected enough with himself to ask for a hug, like let alone confessed to years of sexual abuse. Quote. I could keep up appearances. I could maintain a public persona. Even when I was falling apart internally, Jim began to nurse complicated and confusing homosexual feelings, which he still has never come to terms with, but which he always found deeply shameful. Hey, wasn't short a boy who was done very wrong by the adults in his life and by the society around him. Um, so yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, That's a real bummer. Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's That's one of the rougher childhoods I've come across in all this. Yeah, yeah. So Jim's youth wasn't all trauma, though. When he was 15, the family moved to a much nicer house in neighborhood, and Jim did bloom somewhat in high school. He had an English teacher who really saw promising him, despite his middling grades, and encouraged Jim's creativity. And it turned out that Jim Baker had some incredible, instinctive talent for showmanship. Given the opportunity to deejay at a photography club dance, he developed a love for spinning records and I don't know what it meant to be a good D J in the mid fifties. I would love to. Yeah, I desperately wanted Listen to fucking 15 year old Jim Bakker drops in front of all these fats Domino like hell. Yeah, man. Um, but he was apparently good at it. This is kind of what he was. He was kind of a loner, but then he starts deejaying for parties, and he starts getting invited places, and it kind of like it makes him into a kind of popular kids. Yeah. Yeah, he's cool. Now he's a fucking yeah, Yeah, so that's pretty sweet. Um, in 1956 he developed his first show. It was a 15 act vaudeville style reality show meant as a fundraiser for the school newspaper. The show featured actual professional performances from a Miss Elvis Presley, which I'm guessing that some sort of celebrity impersonator and this this person had been on the Steve Allen show, which was a popular TV show at the time. There was a mambo trail. There were Charleston dancers, the whole nine yards. It was like a big it wasn't just like he was just like throwing together like a little skit before a thing. This was like a huge production. Um, and it turned out popular enough that it became a regular event at the school and Jim would manage it and organize it for the next couple of years while he was in high school. Um, 1957 show was even bigger with 25 acts. It was also popular gym claims that 400 of his classmates showed up at his house for a party. Um, and Jim later recalled something about this period of time that when I read it, I can Onley Here, it Nathan fielders voice. I was in the limelight completely the center of attention. I was obsessed with popularity and would do almost anything to get it. Oh, yeah, yeah. All of this is just scans so disastrously. Yeah. So his teacher, William Harrison, backs up this image of high school era Jim quote. Jim loved the limelight. I have often thought had I been a promoter, I could have turned that boy into a rock star. Um, and it does kind of sound like he had that sort of potential, or at least the ability he could have been like you know, if this kid, um if this kid embraces the kind of complicated, uh, emotional and and, uh, sexual feelings and stuff that he's, uh, struggling with and embraces the artistic side of himself, he could have rolled to New York and had a great career in the theater or something. I mean, like, monologues air, very theatrical. There's like, you know, they build, and they they he Hey, he hey definitely could have succeeded in, like, Hollywood or something. Like the fact that he's been so successful in this career for, like, 60 years now is all the proof you need of that. But he doesn't take that path at all. Um, and the reason why he doesn't take that path, At least he will say that the reason why he didn't take that path is because he hit a kid with this car. Man, did you know that he hit a kid with this car? Uh, yeah, probably. Yeah, Well, uh, yeah. Yeah, well, I always love talking about when people hit kids with their cars. Usually, it turns out better than it did for George Bush's wife. Uh, yeah, which is Look that one up, kids uh, killed a kid? Um, probably on purpose. I mean, that's just that's just a blatant accusation with no no evidence behind it. But it's always I love talking about that. W w his wife or was it w his wife, W wife?